Monday, May 10, 2010

A Little Reminder

Sometimes, I wish I had one of those things that I can talk and it'll type. Is that a special program or computer? I'm not sure but I feel like it would be nice right now. My fingers are feeling the effect of the fajitas I ate tonight and they're not wanting to move. So full = happy tummy :)

I didn't write much this weekend because there just didn't seem much to write or I just couldn't get myself to. Saturday we sat outside for a while, and I always love that, I think Cale does too. I left for Nikki's and stayed the weekend with her. On Saturday night, as I was falling asleep, I started to really miss Cale. When I woke up on Sunday I was still feeling horrible. I couldn't shake the feeling in me. I even went to the back yard for some time with the Lord. I was frustrated because I wanted to have fun with Nikki and not be yucky. Later that evening we went to a BBQ and I would say a half hour before we left I went inside the house and hanging on the wall was a little plaque that said "With God All Things are Possible". It's not a new verse, and I've read it a bazillion times since the accident and even before, but at that moment when I saw it, it was like a hug from God. This huge smile covered my face and walking back outside I felt like a new person! It was like God was saying "Kathleen, remember what I can do...". Then when I got to the hospital last night, Cale let me cuddle with him for about an hour. It was SO great. I was very tempted to stay all night!

Today was report day. Nothing new to say though. As far as Cale's progress nothing has changed. I do have a pile of paper work to fill out for different things but that's okay :) He did throw up today, and when I left I hadn't heard anything from the nurse about what they thought the reason was. I know she called the doctor though. At first I couldn't go in the room and I was going crazy! I felt so bad for him, all I wanted to do was hold him...well, after they got him all cleaned up, I did just that! I crawled in bed with him again and cuddled, the whole time telling him how brave he is and how much I love him.

I still have no idea what's going to be happening in the next few weeks. The report said 2 weeks but that's still up in the air. I'm honestly doing okay with it now. The Case Manager even said I look way better then last week. I think I just have to constantly remind myself that God is the one running the show :)

Basil is now snoring next to me and I'm desperately wanting to join him...

Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26

Good night!

5 comments:

  1. The Bensons5/10/10, 7:58 PM

    My sweet darling friend,
    Your grace is always so amazing and your presence is what is gives hope to all of us. I was watching Army Wives last night and balling like a baby and trying to make a deal with God that if gave you all the desires of your heart then I would forgive Him for not giving me all of mine. But He reminded me that He gives us what we need and what He loves for us to have not what we want. I know that He wants you to have what your gentle heart wants and I am sure that you will get them. We are praying for you every day. We love you so very much.
    Charlie and Jean

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  2. My name is Diana. I can tell you that no matter how much you worry, things will happen as God intends them. So don't worry. God Bless you two and all those caring for Cale. May they be the best and do their best. You might think about getting some real rest soon. Praying for you both and brother Carlos too.

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  3. Hang in there sweetie, God IS in control. God has put so many people in your life that you will never truly be alone, there will always be someone to turn to, to cry with & to deliver the hugs from God. Cale's personality shines through all the darkness in all the little, crazy things he is doing each day. He's in there & God will continue to bring him back to you. Faith expects from God what is beyond all expectation.

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  4. Kathleen,
    I cannot imagine your feelings. I do know that Hebrews 4 says that we do not have a high priest that cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who has also been tested in every way. Most of us have no idea what you are going through, but he does. He has experienced it all. And vs. 16 in that chapter says, "Let us approach the throne of grace with CONFIDENCE, so that we may receive mercy and grace to help us in our time of need." I pray that he will comfort you and be your best friend each day. And, I continue to pray that Cale will make improvements everyday, small or large! I am going to try to come by Friday - a gal is watching my boys so I will have a free couple of hours!!
    Love,
    Christina

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  5. Samantha Stieh5/11/10, 12:45 PM

    Its called Dragon the typing program that you speak and it types.  You are doing amazing hang in there and keep your head high.  Love you.

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