Cale now weighs 122.6 lbs! Not back to normal but better then 105lbs! He hasn't been swallowing hardly at all this last week. Deirdre the speech therapist tried getting him to drink a little water, it ended up not going so well. When I got there, his shirt was soaked. Poor guy.
His left eye is still infected. They've been putting antibiotic cream in his eye for a while now, but because he never shuts that eye, it hasn't gotten any better. This afternoon they put a moisture patch on him, so we'll see how that goes. He's not a fan of anything on his face!
Report says he's able to sit up for 20 minutes now. That sounds like so long! He's tolerating 10 minutes for standing and he's walked up to 30 ft. with help. I asked today about what it is that he needs to be doing before they are seeing the progress they want and what I was told is that he's making progress as far as range of motion and strength, even with some thought progress, but what they want is to see him progress functionally. Example being, like there's all these dots but none connect. It's where time plays a big part of the healing process. Sometimes, they can go to a nursing home for a few months and start waking up more and then can start rehab, but sometimes there body only lets them go so far. So...I wait.
Today was a little bit of a bad day. Tears, frustration, feeling overwhelmed, it all comes and goes. I realized when I was talking to Rachel that Monday's seem to be my harder days. She said that she thinks I look forward to the meetings but at the same time it's a lot and I get overwhelmed. I think that's a perfect description. I've just been missing Cale so much today and I hate having to make plans for him to be in a nursing home. Thankfully, me looking doesn't mean that it's for sure going to happen, and it happening doesn't mean that it's going to be a forever thing.
When Cale got extended in 07' a week before he was supposed to come home from Afghanistan, God gave me a song that encouraged me so much. It's by Casting Crowns called "I'll Praise You In This Storm". The whole song is great but here's just the chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm