Tuesday, June 15, 2010

A Little Like David

Cale hasn't been very responsive today. They tried to sit him next to the sink again today, but he didn't want any part of it. He's constantly trying to pull everyone's yellow gowns off...I think he hates these as much as I do!

Early this afternoon, Amy found out that there are some complications with Adam and he's going to need surgery. They can't do it here, so they are sending him back to ICU at UNC. When she told me, as we hugged and cried, I felt immediately that I need to go with her. I'm not sure if I will be there just for tonight or a couple nights. I am struggling a bit, thinking about how I won't be here with Cale, but I'm so thankful that he is stable and healing. Cale is doing so good. I want to be a blessing for Amy, and there's no one else around that can sit next to her and know what it feels like. Will you pray for us? The next couple days are going to be challenging. I will keep everyone updated. If you're in the area and are willing to sit with Cale for short periods that would be a blessing! Visiting hours are 4pm-8pm.

I have a confession...I've been feeling guilty lately about when I'm having a hard time with all of this. I know God is doing big things, and I know Cale has come a long way but sometimes, even with all the good, I have days that are just hard and I miss Cale. I also know that it's okay for me to have hard days. It is, and it's normal. I think because I see where Adam is and I remember when Cale was there, having a hard time to me, has seemed like I'm not being grateful for how far Cale has come. Even though I know in my heart this isn't at all what it's like, it feels like it.

I've been reading a lot in Psalms and reading through Davids reign, in 1&2 Samuel. I love that even with all that God did in David's life, reading through the Psalms that he wrote, there were times of good and bad, ups and downs. David cried out to God for help during his time of fleeing from Saul and through many battles that he faced. While I cry out to God for help, I'm also trusting Him with EVERY part of this, kind of like David did :)

I read yesterday a psalm that I felt was right out of my journal that I wanted to share...
O Lord, you alone are my hope. I’ve trusted you, O LORD, from childhood. Yes, you have been with me from birth; from my mother’s womb you have cared for me. No wonder I am always praising you! My life is an example to many, because you have been my strength and protection. That is why I can never stop praising you; I declare your glory all day long. Psalm 71:5-8

Thank you for being on this journey with me, the good days and the bad days. Thank you for reading my roller coaster thoughts and even more, thank you for praying for us.

If you haven't yet and would like to be apart of the prayer chain, email prayingforcale@yahoo.com Make sure to include your name and location! Thank you!

4 comments:

  1. ya know kathleen,i know through my own experiences that God allows satan to let the bad come to us,God doesnt make it happen, just allows satan. many times its to reach us and through the bad many come to Christ. i was going along thninkin i was saved and following God or maybe i was just in a comfort zone with God, but not growing. it took something in our lives to get ahold of me. i see sooo much of God workin in you and cale.i ask why all the time about cale. i guess its just not ours to know, but how we respond to it all and to God. many many people would be damning God and hating him for what he did or getting so down that they cant see straight. i dont see any of that in you. do you get sad, lonely, depressed at times ya, and if you didnt you wouldnt be human.what i do see is a young girl full of life. i also see something extremely rare in todays humans, i see a girl that meant every word of her vows, a girl willing to stand right there in what i think is the worse way of the saying (through sicknes and health, good and bad)i think that most people would just say i cant go through this and quit. you are a strong lady and i also see your growth so much in God through all of this. many can say they are a christian kathleen but you are truely growing fruits that others can see. God has really gotten ahold of you and it shows. we will be praying for you two as always but we will step em up for adam and amy too. you know ive learned another thing, y cale and you are having to go through this dark period is hard to fathom, but it looks like you have a small part of the answer, you need to help others right here in the u.s. that have to go through the same thing, those that havent gone through it cant really emphathize with others that are facing it, and maybe your call is to reach those with the same issues and let God shine through to them. you could be the beakin that God uses to shine light into thier darkness. i love you and im sooooo proud of YOU. jurita

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  2. Praying for all of you! Love you and miss you lots! Let me know if you need anything!!

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  3. Praying for you as you are with Amy and away from Cale. Maybe he will surprise you with even MORE new things when you return from UNC! It is so great to read the reports and new things he is doing!! Yea Cale!! Keep it up!!!
    Christina

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  4. lifting you up, into His arms...lean back and allow Him to comfort you when you are sad..good luck over the next few days. May you also be blessed by the experience. (((HUG)))

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