I just finished filling out a horribly long packet about the accident! I've been putting it off since February and finally I hit the deadline. I feel productive! :)
It was such a nice Sunday afternoon! I usually stay with Ty and Nikki on Saturday nights and then drive back Sunday. When I got to the hospital, Cale was just waking up. We spent some time outside relaxing in the sun, cuddled in bed for a while, and just some hanging out time in his chair. It was so nice! He also counted with me again! He's got it down, I'm not worried about him showing them tomorrow. He is having trouble with sleeping lately. He stays up all night and then wants to sleep during therapy. He's still getting some in, but it's only been one session each day. The night nurses say every time they go in at night he's wide awake, and usually getting into trouble! ;)
Today reminded me of a Saturday that Cale and I spent together when we were at Drum, by the end of the day all I could do was smile, that's how it feels now. I remember that whole day all we did was laugh and talk together. We did that a lot but that day was just extra special. I was looking through pictures on Cale's computer and found a few from that afternoon...
The best thing in the world, is knowing that there is one person that knows everything I'm feeling, everything I miss, everything I long for, and His name is Jesus. Through this He has been there the whole time, holding me, loving me, and carrying me. He's been speaking to my heart, that this is not about me. So easily in life when something goes wrong or gets hard, I get caught up in how I feel, what I want, how's it's changed me, but it's not about me. It's about the kingdom. How quickly my focus can sway. Relaxing days with my husband are great and I know God cares even about that, but it's so much bigger then what I see now...
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
Chorus from Natalie Grant's song "Held"