Monday, September 5, 2011

Eh.

When I had first realized that this weekend was Labor Day weekend and Cale wasn’t going to have therapy from Friday-Monday, I immediately had the mind-set that we needed to go somewhere. Even though we have a few trips coming up, I just knew there was somewhere we needed to go, someone we needed to visit, some new place we needed to enjoy.

Before any plans could be made, Cale’s speech therapist needed to switch days and so then Saturday was no longer open. With not being able to leave town, I went straight to plan B; make as many plans of fun things we could do here. What was I thinking by the way?

Why not just relax?

I ended up not having much say of what the weekend was going to look like anyhow, Cale led the itinerary (his idea was to relax! Nice!). We ended up not going to bed until really late on Friday night and Saturday morning I had to wake the Boy up a couple hours before he wanted to be woken. Even with being tired, he had a good session. While he was in speech, I went to the Farmers Market to stock up on some good stuff. Before I left the house, the speech therapist shared with me that during their last session, she had asked Cale what he wanted for his birthday. His reply had been a surprise; one that brought tears to my eyes and hers as well, “to get better.” Once again the level of his understanding goes deeper every day.

Right after speech, I had asked Cale if he could brush his teeth because it didn’t get done before and I had an agenda; things for us to get done that day…5 minutes later I went to the room to check on him and he had gotten under the covers and was out cold. Ok…that works too!

Off and on Saturday he was in bed and during the moments that he was awake, he was mostly grumpy. His body was having a hard time recovering from such a fun late night.

On Sunday we went to church earlier than usual because we had signed up to help in the nursery. Our schedule at church changed as of Sunday and with the change, I thought we could take advantage and plug in. Helping in the nursery seemed like it would be a good place to start. I didn’t know how he was going to do, but if things went badly there was a backup plan.

For most of the time everything was going great! Cale did such a good job helping with the little 2 and 3 year olds. I had to help him help them, but it was so sweet to be a part of and watch. Cale seemed to be enjoying it as well.

Not quite an hour into it, he was done. It was time to change things up so we walked to the foyer with plans to greet people as they came into the building and to visit.

Well, that wasn’t Cale’s plan!

He was done. All the way done. It took so much out of him to help the kiddos, that there was nothing left to give to anyone else. I thought a walk would help, but he had already checked out. Thankfully his mom had come to the house for church and instead ended up staying with him at home so I could still go back to church for worship. I have to say, after having Cale back in church next to me for so long now, I really missed him!

As soon as I was back home, Cale went to bed without lunch. He had stayed awake with his mom and had told her that he had to wait for me, which was really sweet.

Two of the youth from church came to the house and hung out while Cale slept and Mama and I ran a couple errands. Cale’s birthday party is this weekend and I had a few last minute things to grab. Cale slept the whole time I was gone and then was only up for a short time before wanting to go back to bed. Again, while awake he was a bit…grumpy.

This morning I didn’t want to wake him up before he was ready. I let him wake up on his own and we slowly got him ready for the day. We went shooting with Joe and Kyle, which I loved and had a blast, but Cale wasn’t a big fan…like I thought he was going to be.

We used to go together when we were dating and then once Cale was in the Army he was trained. He talked about the guns he was going to buy once out of the military and how he was going to take me again and teach me.

I had been thinking that going with our friends that those memories would be sparked and he’d have a good time. He did get excited when he saw the guns, but he only shot one and it didn’t go so well. When I talked to him about it after he said he was done and wanted to go home, he said that it was sad. When I pushed for more information he said that he used to be good.

There were 3 different types of guns and he only shot that first time and he was done. After I shot a few times, I climbed into the car and played cards with him while Joe and Kyle shot for a bit. It was a hard miserable time for him.

There’s something hopefully in the works with the police department and Cale shooting, so maybe with some training that will become something he enjoys again!

Here are some snapshots from today…






If you’ve spent any time with Cale in person, you have most likely heard his famous, “eh.” Most of the time I get a kick out of it, because it’s pretty funny and kind of like his trade mark.

The problem I see with it is that God does not desire Cale to live a life of “eh.” I know He doesn’t! A well-known verse, Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” It doesn’t say that He just wants us to go through life feeling blah and eh!

Please join with me in praying for Cale to have a joyful passion-filled life again. A life that even though may not look like it used to, and may be really hard right now, that he would live it with hope and a future that the Lord has planned out for him!

We did end up having a good night together. We watched a little Family Feud and played with Basil. :)

He's working so hard. So unbelievably hard.

“Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass … Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.” -Psalm 37:4,7

4 comments:

  1. Your devotion to Cale just leaves me without words, other than to say that you are so very brave, and I admire you.

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  2. I love Cale's idea of a relaxing long weekend... that is exactly what we did too! :) I know exactly what you feel when you pray for your husband to have a joyful passion-filled life again. That has been my prayer for my husband too. He was medically retired from the Army. And these Army guys miss it, we know they do. It has taken many years for my husband to begin seeing a different plan God had for him. I pray your husband sees that too. I am so glad I saw your post on the (in)courage blog frog. So nice to 'meet' you Kathleen!

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  3. Kathleen, I love you. I admire the way you find things for Cale, and do them. You walk the walk Father has put before you with grace and dignity. "YOU PUT A SMILE ON FATHER'S FACE!!!" Marion

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  4. Shari: your words encourage my heart!

    Jennifer: Yay for a long relaxing weekend! Praise God that your husband has begun seeing life in a new way. They sure do miss being soldiers!

    Marion: You put a smile on my face!

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