I realized today that I'm getting in another rut. I think overall, I have an icky attitude today. I'm missing Cale and I get wrapped up in having such big expectations everyday. I know that the last couple weeks, he has been doing lots of new things, I think it just gets to the point that all I want are really big things. Like I just can't get satisfied. It's not really fair to Cale, because he's working so hard, and if I look back in my journal or the blog, he is progressing and doing great. It all comes down to me really missing him. Time is my friend right now as far as him healing and getting better, but I'm not going to say I like waiting, because I don't. I've told God a lot today about what I think about this whole thing. I think since I know He can handle all my thoughts, I let Him know even more, I just really hate this.
Now that I'm done whining...I'm not sure that I've shared that Cale is now tracking? He turns his head and follows, and it actually seems like he's really looking. He also has doubled his walking distance, it was 50ft. Sometimes when they walk him, he does really well, and sometimes they kind of move him along. He's also been helping a little when they dress him. Still no sound.
Today, speech gave him a little cup with water, usually he just holds the cup or raises it in the air. This time he put it to his lips and poured it in his mouth! It didn't stop there, he also swallowed! He did that twice and then she gave him a cup with ice chips and a spoon. He studied it for a while and then scooped up some ice and put it in his mouth. These are two things she's been working with him for a while! It's so exciting to see him actually do it! I feel awfully silly now for complaining...
Thank you so much for continuing to pray for us.
Here's a verse from a comment yesterday. It's one that I actually pray often on my walk in the mornings :)
Therefore humble yourselves...under the mighty hand of God, that in due time He may exalt you. Casting the whole of your care- all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all- on Him; for he cares for you affectionately, and cares about you watchfully.
1 Peter 5:7 AMP
Kathleen that verse is one of my favorite all time verses! God's timing is just beyond understanding. It reminds me of my favorite passage (Ecc 3) which talks about how there is a time and place for everything. If you don't plant at a certain time, you can't harvest at a certain time, etc. Then verse 11 says this:
ReplyDelete"Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end."
We all have no idea what God is up to, but right now its a such a beautiful time for you and for Cale as he takes these "gigantic" baby steps each day :) We love you and looks like we will see you in a few weeks!!!
Yahoo!!!!! the next step will be talking and eating and drinking on his own. So excited. Can't wait to talk with you. love you both soooo much. Kathy-Mom
ReplyDeletePraise God!! I knew that Cale could would show everyone what he can really do. God is truly amazing in this healing process. I love you both!!!
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