Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Worship

My brain tonight is on overload. I'm going to try to start at the top and work my way through the day :)

When I got to the hospital this morning, Cale was still sleeping, actually, he was snoring very loudly! PT and OT came in and were the bad guys that woke him up. It's so funny for me to sit and watch them make the attempts to wake him, and for him to protest so strongly. There were several times during the process, I just sat and giggled to myself. The first session didn't go to great, but later they were able to try some walking again. It kind of seemed today that he was having more trouble then usual. They also have a new wheelchair for him, it seems to fit his long body a little nicer :)

For speech, she got out the coins again. He messed with them for a tiny bit, and then seemed to loose interest pretty quickly. Today, when she tried putting the ice chips in his mouth, he took the spoon from her, grabbed the ice and put it back in the cup, and then set the spoon to the side. This was great because he was able to make the statement that he didn't want them, and he did it calmly. During the afternoon session, she gave Cale a pencil and for the first time, HE STARTED WRITING LETTERS! She had written Caleb at the top of the paper, and underneath, he did a C-a-l and then two letters that we'll say were the e-b! It was so exciting! I didn't think he was going to do anything because the pencil was in his left hand, but yep! He did it!

It was another great day! This afternoon, about half way through the day, I caught myself setting expectations for him. Since the last two days were so great, I felt that if he was doing "this" then he should be able to do "this"...it doesn't work like that. Well, he showed me when he started writing! haha!

I would have to say, the last 2 hours I was at the hospital this evening were the best. His awareness was in and out quite a bit today, unlike the last two days when I felt like it was more constant, but during those two hours he was engaged the whole time! I was sitting on the bed just talking with him, Shawna called, and while I was on the phone with her, he reached out for the phone. She was sweet enough to talk to him and let him just listen. After that, I pulled up Facebook and showed him a bunch of different pictures of people, and a lot of our older ones. Usually, Cale will look for a minute and then be done, he looked through all the pictures! He even nodded a few times if I would say that persons name. This just in itself is such an improvement!

Since the accident, I've tried several times playing music for Cale. I think it just seems to get him more agitated. A little while before I left, I was laying in the bed with Cale, I had my little pink Ipod, one plug in my ear and one in Cale's ear. I didn't think he was going to go for it because last time I tried music with the Ipod, he almost sent it flying across the room! This time, I put on "No Sacrifice" by Jason Upton. As the music played, I could feel the presence of the Lord so strong. At one point Cale reached over, pulled my head to him so that our foreheads were touching. Amazing. There was no need for words, it's OK that he's not fully cognitive, it didn't matter that we were in a hospital bed, and at that moment all worries faded. We worshiped together. God's thoughts are higher than ours, His words are deeper than ours, and His love is so much stronger than ours. We listened to 5 songs before I had to go, and the whole time Cale was listening, focused, aware. Praise God!

Here is a link to listen to the song, which even if you just listen for a couple minutes, it's so beautiful!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1jG-g48I6kA

Here are the words:
To you I give my life, not just the parts I want to
To you I sacrifice these dreams that I hold on to

Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

To you I give the gifts
Your love has given me
How can I hoard the treasures that you've designed for free?

Because
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

To you I give my future
As long as it may last
To you I give my present
To you I give my past

Because
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
Your thoughts are higher than mine
Your words are deeper than mine
Your love is stronger than mine
This is no sacrifice
Here's my life

3 comments:

  1. The Bensons6/30/10, 5:59 AM

    Just when I think I can't cry anymore. This is so amazing.We are so encouraged by Cale and by you. We love you both.
    Jean and Charlie

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  2. Carli Williams6/30/10, 6:19 AM

    Kathleen, I just wanted you to know that we (me and my church family)are still praying for you and Caleb. It's is so awesome to see the progress he has made and we know the Lord will continue to bring healing and strength for you both!

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  3. What an awesome post:) God is so amazing.

    But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

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