Everything seemed perfect. He was home. Finally, we were going to be able to start our new life together. I had even titled a Facebook album, "A new life :)"...I was ready to have my husband home and not have to worry about the next deployment.
Our plans were in motion, February 8th we left Fort Drum and were headed for our across the country trip. We had planned to see the US and all that it had to offer. The second day on our trip we got a call that the blood test to see if I was pregnant was negative. We were disappointed at first, but since we were waiting to see what the next job was going to be like, we were ready to live on cereal and Ramen noodles if we needed...it didn't matter as long as we were together :)
February 10th, we were visiting friends in VA and received a call that our train to WA was going to be delayed. Before getting on the train we were going to visit with my brother in NC. Since we were not leaving for a couple days because of weather, Cale was wanting to stay in VA for another night, and I was just wanting to get to my brother's house. We ended up leaving and getting through the snow just fine. As we crossed the boarder into NC it was beautiful! We stopped to get gas and some yummy Krispy Kreme donuts to share. Life was good...and I knew it was only going to get better. The car was full of light and exciting conversation, we talked about anything and everything.
Beulaville is a small town near Jacksonville. My brother was meeting us there and then we followed him to his house. I was sending text messages letting Mama and friends know that we made it! Finally! My brother turned right on his road, and we followed behind, "Haw Branch Road" we shouted! Isn't this what perfect is like? It didn't matter that Cale no longer had a job, it didn't matter that we had been traveling and our train was delayed, which caused plans to already change...we were together, laughing, singing, and smiling.
In an instant it all changed.
There was no rewind button to push, nothing to make everything disappear. I was in an ambulance and Cale was no where to be seen. "Where is my husband?", "What happened?", "Is Cale ok?", so many questions running through my head. How do I make it go away?
Everything changed in our lives, and there was no choice to be made. It was made for us...Cale has made lots of progress and God is working so much. I'm blessed to see the miracle and be a part of it. I know that God is not finished, He's in control, and that I need to trust Him. I also know that I miss Cale and I together having fun, where time, even though short was-perfect.
I've always been very honest with letting everyone know how I'm really doing. You see when I have good days and when I have bad days. You've walked this journey with me, prayed for us, and continued to be a HUGE blessing. I am trusting God, and He has given me amazing peace from the beginning, but there is deep layers right to my core. I made this video today, hoping to show you right into my heart.