Yesterday I wasn't feeling very good. It wasn't a big deal, just my stomach decided to turn against me. I wasn't sure what was going on, all I knew is I wanted to be comforted. I might have written before about a moment I had of sadness for myself a while ago wondering, if I get sick or something is wrong, who will take care of me? I'll be taking care of Cale, but no one will be able to care for me...that time of thinking has come and gone, but yesterday, for an instant I had that thought as I was at the hospital taking care of Cale, "I don't feel good. What about me?" Cale was sitting in his wheelchair, so I stopped what I was doing and climbed on his lap, curled up, and let him hold me. He was so sweet and even rubbed my back! I do realize that I might have been a little like a baby, but doesn't everyone desire to be cared for and comforted? Cale kept forgetting that something was wrong, but every time I reminded him, he so sweetly loved on me. In OT he even wrote a sweet note with Monica's help that said "Hi Kathleen, I hope you feel better! I love you. -Cale I couldn't help but think of how many times I forget that the Father's lap is always open and He wants to comfort me and hold me too! He desires me to come to Him so He can love on me just like I felt I needed yesterday. I have the two most amazing men in my life that any girl could ever have! I do know that some would argue, but I definitely feel like I could win tonight! ;)
A guy came around the hospital this morning handing out cards from a school near by for Veteran's Day tomorrow. After I read Cale's card to him, we both laughed so hard! I thought it was so nice of them to make cards for all the patients at the hospital :)
I know you are listening. You are going to be in our hearts until the whole world ends. If you are going to live, I hope you have a great life.
-signed the student
In Neuro Psych, Cale has now been consistently saying that he is sad that he's here and he wants to go home. Dr. Howe said it doesn't seem to be a real problem yet, but it's something to watch. She talked with him about how far he has come since he's been here and then told him that in the meeting with all the staff, all of his therapists shared how he's working 150% in each therapy and how he's a fighter! I know that, but it always makes my heart smile so big when I hear the staff saying it too! Yay!
So...I have gotten to ride a horse (not in a few weeks), and now Cale has too! Yes! Today Cale started his first session of Hippotherapy!!! I feel like it's pretty crazy as I'm typing! I would say he's a cowboy now, but Cale has a thing against cowboys...haha! Every Wednesday he will get to ride a horse and hopefully it will help improve muscle tone, balance, posture, coordination, and weight shifting while walking. When we first arrived at the Ranch, we had to go into a separate room and go through a bunch of questions and Cale had do do some physical stuff to show where he's at and what areas he has trouble with. At one point he saw a horse walk past the window and his whole face lit up with the biggest smile! Cale's mom had a couple horses so he used to be very comfortable. When I first heard that Hippotherapy was an option, I had to find a way for Cale to get a chance with it. His pt looked into it, and we found a way! We were all curious of how Cale was going to do because when he walks he's so afraid of falling and a lot has happened since he last rode. After all the questioning was over, it was time for a tour of the ranch. Cale was petting every horse that came close! His smile stayed the whole time along with a very excited twinkle in his eye! Next, it was time to get on the horse...and Cale loved it-every minute of it! He was so confident and content. This is a huge blessing and I know that great things are going to come from this including his mood!
Here is a miniature horse that Cale thought was so silly!
A riding he will go!
Sorry about my talking in the video! I think I forget that the phone picks up my voice! Also, it's kind of far away from him, but I was trying to keep the camera steady while walking and get caught up to them. I guess I'll have lots of chances to get more videos later! :)
In OT, Cale made another special note for me! I like this whole thing about working on his hand writing! I can get used to all of these sweet love notes! :) This time, he was asked to think of anything he wanted to say to me and then the OT helped him cut paper and make the note very pretty. Cale traced the heart and he picked the words "Thank you and I love you" I am so blessed to have such an amazing husband! Those words mean so much to me! I think again I can say I have the two most amazing men in my life that any girl could ever have!
10) I am thankful for food. I'm not going to lie...I love food. It's yummy, it's good for me (maybe not everything I eat...), and it's gives me comfort too. Did I already say it's yummy? ;) It can be salty or sweet. It can be mashed or chewy. It can be green or pink...I am just all over the board thankful for food! I eat hospital trays everyday for lunch and dinner, and I am still a happy girl :) I'm thankful that Cale can eat with me now and we can enjoy our meals as a family. I'm thankful that I have an appetite (some day's way to much of one!) and I'm thankful that the Lord has blessed us with so many varieties of food! I love to cook it too!