Sunday, November 28, 2010

What it feels like...

What It Feels Like- FFH

So this is what if feels like to walk the wilderness
and this is what if feels like to come undone
So this is what if feels like to loose my confidence
unsure of anything or anyone
So this is what if feels like to walk the desert sand
and this is what if feels like to hear my name
and to be scared to death cause I'm all alone
but feel love and peace just the same

And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
And I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
So this is what if feels like to be led

So this is what if feels like to just fall apart
to be totally unglued
to find out if I accept my brokenness
I get more of me, I get all of you
If this is what if feels like to be on shaky ground
Careful of every step I take
Realizing as I stop to look around
I look around and see everything a different way

And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
and I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
So this is what if feels like to be led
and this is what if feels like to be led

So this is what if feels like to just walk away
from everything I thought kept me safe
to depend just on you for every meal
and find it's better this way
oh it's better this way

And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
And I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
like i do right now
And this may not be the road I would choose for me
but it still feels right somehow
And I have never felt you as close to me as I do right now
And this is what if feels like to be led
And this is what if feels like to be led
And this is what if feels like


Today I told Cale "You're amazing." C: "You're amazing too" K: "You're more amazing" C: "You can get there."

It's been a good day. Instead of hurrying to the hospital to be in Cale's therapy, I stayed in my room and watched our church in NY online. It was awesome and always so great to be a part of. God is working like crazy and it's the coolest thing to hear about and see! Right after I bought a ticket to visit NY next month...yikes! :) I have to visit another facility so I added a stop on the way-clear across the country! That's what happens after seeing faces that I miss so much!

On the way to PT, Cale walked down the hall with a cane...the whole way! Usually, he's afraid and grabbing onto everything, but he did so great! Once we got to the gym, Cale had a test. He was back on the machine that he's done before to help with weight shifting and balance. For the test he had to hold as still as he was able while it was being marked. He had even weight between his left foot and right, but had a little more weight on his toes. Next he had to close his eyes and do it all over and then another part, the wall around him started to move. The last part of the test, the thing under his feet started moving. I am so proud of how GREAT he did! After the test was all over, we were able to look back over everything and see what areas Cale still needs help with.





Cale was saying he was sad and wanted to go home today. I asked him "What's something at home that you miss and want to do?" C: "play games" K: "What kind of games?" C: "Xbox" This is so great! Up until today, he hasn't had any interest in Xbox (which he used to love to play!), but he now remembers! This may be the only time I'm actually excited he wants to play...haha!

6 comments:

  1. I am so excited to see you darling girl. If you are coming back here my heart would be so happy. We would come and see you both often and we could go do lots of things and if it's not in NY but close we could come and visit at least.
    I am so very happy for you with Cale's progress.
    Love this song too:
    " You are the everlasting God, the everlasting God.
    You do not faint you do not grow weary.
    You're the defender of the weak,
    You comfort those in need.
    You lift us up on wings like eagles."
    Remember my sweet that when you grow weary or faint look up and he will carry you everlasting wings.
    We love you and are so so excited to see what the Lord brings next for you both.

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  2. This is an awesome update! It's so funny that he remembers the Xbox now. I agree with you, I think I'd be happy for him to play! :)

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  3. Kathleen Perfect song not just for where you are at but for a great many folks who read your blog, what an encouragement you are!!! So happy for Caleb's memories of ...yes XBOX too funny - Love the way he responds to you - His sence of humor is amazing - that to me is a great sign of what is to come!!!! Love you guys!!!! Hope we get a chance to see you when you come... but I know there are many who feel the same way ! Blessings to you ! Love the Bovier's

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  4. just read about 8 posts...so incredible!!! Your new picture is gorgeous, by the way!

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  5. I am laughing about the xbox! I would be thrilled too!!

    Casey Q

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  6. Kathleen, Thank you for sharing the song. I needed that. I am pleased for how well Cale is doing. Hugs, Mairon

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