Friday, January 28, 2011

Footprints.

Footprints In The Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”

The Lord replied,
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you.”


I've been thinking about this poem today. The words are so encouraging, and I love the visual picture that it gives!

It's been a weird rocky kind of day. The morning started off rough. Cale is at a point that he knows when he needs to use the bathroom, but sometimes it's not in time to get to the bathroom, this lately leaves him grumpy and embarrassed. As the janitor was in the room helping with clean up, Kathleen decides to tip her coffee cup over! Cale and I watched as suddenly the floor in his room was covered in my yummy (and much needed) coffee. Oops.

Therapy's were a little strained too. It was just a really off day. When things are getting Cale too upset, the therapists have started playing cards with him to cheer him up. I think Cale won in almost all of the games played...me, not so much! Of course, I had plenty that needed to get done today, but couldn't seem to pull myself away. Next week I'll start!

Bad news for the day...I had a good friend here take our Honda to a mechanic that he trusts in the area. It needed an oil change and the breaks have been squealing. Mama is getting ready to drive our car to Seattle for us, so I wanted to make sure everything was checked up on. I haven't kept up on making sure things are done with the car and checked. I did have the oil change done in NC, but that's about it. Well, like always, there turned out to be a list of things needing to be done :( It's a bummer, but I know it needs to be taken care of. I don't want to get to Seattle and have something happen and me be stranded all alone. Boo.

The happiness of the day...it's Friday Night Family Dinner tonight. The menu is Chinese food, which I love, but Cale's not a fan. He has pizza rolls as a back up! ;) I'm also staying the night with our friends here, for a girls night! :) I'm really excited and could really use one!

Please be praying for Cale. He still doesn't understand whats going on. We went to the main hospital for a date with our Bingo bucks. We were both chilly (sun disappeared and the fog came in!) so I told him we should run up and down the halls of the hospital to get warm. He said, "let's go!" he doesn't understand things have changed or that he can't do something until he goes to do it. It's not always like that, but a lot of the time it is. He gets frustrated when suddenly he can't do something anymore, it's really hard, or he's not as good as he used to be. It's hard not knowing why! We talk about it a lot with him, but his memory doesn't retain so, the whole thing causes him to be agitated and frustrated...I can only imagine! That's what's so great about my reminder through the poem. I can't do anything for Cale right now to make everything better and go away, but it's ok because God is carrying him, both of us!

Happy Friday!

4 comments:

  1. Tamara L. Host (Mike Ehrsam's aunt)1/28/11, 5:36 PM

    Yes Kathleen, God is carrying both of you. It has been almost a year since the accident. I have been here reading, praying, hoping along with so many others. Cale has come so far from where he was that night. I can't tell you how many times my eyes have welled up with tears for both of you. Not just in sadness but also happiness because of how far you both have come together. Cale will understand in time, so many things that he can't comprehend now. It truly has been a miracle and a work of God. I continue to pray for you both.

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  2. Kathleen!! I can't imagine what you are feeling. When my Dave gets angry or upset, we can talk about it and deal with the issue. I will trust with you for Cale's attitude and his physical issues. I love you and am glad, glad, glad you will be in Seattle and I can come see you occasionally. Hugs, Marion Oh, about the coffee spilled, at least all that had to be done was clean up. When I comensed to do the same awhile back, I had to buy a new keyboard for my son. :{

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  3. This too is a little much for Cale to understand, but it was in our sermon this past week and thought it might bring some perspective (and hope) to you! It was talking how Joseph was foreshadowing Jesus (Joseph had to endure much -- being rejected by his brothers, sold to be a slave and then his triumph by saving his family; Jesus was rejected by his own village, sold out by those fearing/rejecting him, and then triumph on the cross). It was through these trials that God allowed Joseph (and Jesus) to grow in maturity and wisdom. Sometimes when we are handed too much without the trial (ie: before we're ready for the challenge), we can't use our wisdom and discernment to make right/good choices. It's through our trials that we can grow and mature to then lead others. I hope this makes sense!

    Anyway, this too is another phase of Cale's. It might be frustrating and sad, but I also believe it will be just another trial to provide wisdom to you (and hopefully to many of us); plus Cale will be healed! How much more can we ask of the Father who gives us good gifts? Just remember, through you and Cale, there are a lot of us (and even yourselves) receiving wisdom and good gifts to then help others!

    God bless you both,
    Terri W

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  4. Kathleen , Happy Saturday ! New Day ~don't you love it that we get to begin again- I do !!!! Praying for you guys ! Love you both!!!!!!

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