Sunday, May 22, 2011
Because He Lives
I didn’t post last night because I was gone from Cale all day and missed him so much! Since Mark has been coming to help out so that I could get things done, I wasn’t spending as much time with Cale. I was still around and able to see him, but he didn’t have my full attention. Yesterday, I went with my mom and her best friend and her daughter and then met up with two other friends as well, to see Wicked! It was so much fun and I loved the show. Very well done!
Before the show started, we also went on a little ride thing above the falls in Spokane. None of us had actually done it before, so we decided it was time. I think the most fun was making fun of our friend Dawn…she was a bit scared! Heehee! Love her! :)
Right after the show, we stopped for coffee and then came home. I couldn’t wait to get back to Cale. It was nice to have a day away though. He told me he missed me so much and I agreed! All I did last night was the nightly routine stuff, like feeding the animals and letting them outside. Cale and I decided that all we wanted to do was cuddle up in bed for the night and nothing else. I had asked him if he would meet me in the room so we could get ready for bed, and I would be right in after taking care of our pets. When I walked in our room, Cale was already in the bathroom brushing his teeth!!!!! He was brushing his teeth all by himself!!!! I didn’t ask him to start, I didn’t help him get anything ready…he did it ALL by himself!!!! This is HUGE!!! I’m soooo proud of him! Awesome.
After we were done getting ready, we turned on the TV to see if anything was worth watching…usually there’s not. Cale and I never had TV channels the whole time we were married. We did watch movies, but when we first moved to NY, we had decided that we didn’t want to end up like a lot of married couples that we knew, that spends all of their time watching fake lives on TV and never actually having their own. Since we’ve been home, we have channels now, but all we watch is Hockey or American Idol (or should I say, I just watch that one…). We ended up on the cooking channel, which I always love watching when I do get the chance. It was so much fun last night because we were watching Chopped which is a competition show. We would both give our opinions on who was going to get chopped. Anytime on a movie or TV that there is conversation and Cale is paying attention, he’ll talk and answer the questions that are being asked. Well, I think last night might have been the most fun! Haha!
This morning was church and I have to admit, it was a little tough. We’re leaving this week, so it was our last Sunday before our Seattle stay. It’s been amazing to be back, and our church family has blessed us so much with this house, but we’ve been home about a month and a half, and I still feel like we haven’t been able to find our place here. I want so badly for us to be involved and to build up relationships again, but it just needs to be done differently than it would have before, and I’m still learning this. Part of us not getting settled and involved is because of this trip. I know we’ll be coming back and then can pray about where we can best fit in this body of amazing believers. The time will come!
We sang, Because He lives in worship and even though I’ve been singing that song since I was a little girl, these days it touches my heart in a whole new way. The chorus is so simple, yet so powerful and holds so much truth.
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives, All fear is gone.
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living just because He lives.
It doesn’t matter what is going through my head or what emotions are overtaking this mind of mine when I open my eyes in the morning or close them when I go to sleep each night, I know that because Jesus lives, I can face each day. The night of the accident was one I’ll never forget and one that I never want to relive, but I knew that I could face the next day because I had Jesus. It’s been the same the last 466 days. It doesn’t matter what stage Cale is going through, or what the next challenge is, I know that God holds the future and can take all my fears away. I can know all of this and be confident in it because He lives.
On the first day of the week, very early in the morning, the women took the spices they had prepared and went to the tomb. They found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they entered, they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus. While they were wondering about this, suddenly two men in clothes that gleamed like lightning stood beside them. In their fright the women bowed down with their faces to the ground, but the men said to them, “Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is not here; he has risen! Remember how he told you, while he was still with you in Galilee: ‘The Son of Man must be delivered over to the hands of sinners, be crucified and on the third day be raised again.’ ” Luke 24:1-7
He’s alive and active and real! And, because of that, I can face another day!
I know I’ve said it before, but I wanted to say again thank you for all the emails and messages. I can’t tell you how much they’ve blessed me and usually they come in the moments that I need them the most. Just last week, I was sitting with Mama telling her how much I just want the Lord to use me. I’ve wanted that desperately since I was 13. I remember singing the Newsboys song Hands and Feet at the top of my lungs and then praying just as loud, asking the Lord to use me. Use me for your glory! Use me as your tool!
I still want that…and sometimes I feel like I could be doing so much more.
Right after I had finished talking to Mama, I checked my email and had such an encouraging email from a man that said he’s been reading the blog since a couple months after the accident and he has been so touched by our story. I also received a comment on Youtube and between the two, I was in tears!
I needed to be reminded how God is working because I am very forgetful when I’m caught up in my day to day life with caring for Cale.
I just wanted to say thank you and know that even though you might not have heard back from me, I read your email, letter, message, comment, and it’s blessed my heart in such a rich way. Thank you!
Posted by Kathleen at 3:54 PM