Pastries and Square Pants.

Last night a friend posted the video I had made using the song “Blessings” by Laura Story. It shows our adventures and hard work to get home. The end of it shows a clip of us finally being home that first night on April 1. Since I saw it posted, I of course watched it again and Cale joined me. When the video was almost over and Cale saw the house, he yelled out, “home!” YAY!!!! It was so, so, so good to hear him call that our home! I’m hoping that sticks…for good this time. I was so excited about him calling it home, that after the video was over, I pulled up a bunch of pictures of our house. We both looked through them twice! We are missing being in our home. It’s been fun here, but there’s no place like home! Soon…it’s so soon!

There was no therapy today, just radiation. Cale is starting to feel some of the side effects. His nose has been stuffy and really bothering him and then today he was saying the inside of his mouth was hurting a lot. Thankfully, he hasn’t experienced anything too bad, and hopefully never will down the road. If you think about it, please be praying against side effects! I think he may be starting to feel the fatigue too.

Right after the accident happened, I totally forgot a lot of our passwords. I couldn’t get into my old email, Cale’s email, Mypay, or listen to his voicemails on his phone. Random things went out of my mind and I wasn’t able to think of them again. Weird. Well, after all of this time, I finally was able to reset his password to his voicemail. It was such an easy thing to do, but all of these months, I thought it was going to be complicated, and I just haven’t remembered to do anything with it. He had 18 that were still on and hadn’t timed off, so we spent time this afternoon listening to all of them. Out of the 18, 11 were from Cale calling from my phone and leaving a voice message to himself. They usually start with, “Hi Cale, this is Cale…” There was another voicemail that was Cale leaving it for Joe, but on his phone! Haha! Oh goodness…I love him. Crazy boy.

Yesterday, Cale had the TV on and was watching Sponge Bob Square Pants while I was making lunch. He used to say this show annoyed him so much, because it seemed to be on everywhere. It was fascinating watching him be so focused on this show! He was clapping and cheering, making sound effects with it, and laughing like crazy! Part of me watched him, with a slight sad heart, because it shows very much where he’s at, and I know that what was coming out was like a little boy, BUT it’s so amazing that he’s able to follow the show, react to what’s happening, and to enjoy something! Things right now are so hard for him to enjoy, but he was laughing so hard! It was another rough day, but in that moment, all I kept thinking was how grateful I was for the sponge with the square pants.

After radiation, we stopped at the grocery store. I ran inside and gave Cale his phone to call me if he needed. I don’t do this if I’m going to be a while, but when it’s quick trips in and out, especially if he’s tired, I let him just rest. The two times before I did this, he called and talked to me while I shopped. It was actually kind of fun, because I wasn’t right by him (which he calls me when I’m right next to him all the time!), and we even flirted! :) Today though, he didn’t call so I took that time as just quiet time, but also it was fun because I always love grocery shopping (I know, I’m weird). Wanna know what gets me all the time?! The pastries! Man, when I walk through the bakery, the smells of the fresh bread, the sweet desserts all boxed up perfectly, the rolls that look like they would be perfect with dinner tonight, and the big round loaves of crusty on the outside-light and fluffy on the inside bread. Oh man. Yes, in the moments that I walk through that part of the store, I’m taken away to a land where I am indeed 500 pounds and stuffing my face-but extremely happy.

Normally, I can’t fight hard enough and I give into just one treat…or two…or I come up with the idea to have people over, so that I can splurge a little more…

Today, I walked away. But I did get a small thing of ice cream for us.
Guilty, but happy! ;)

My time with the Lord the last few mornings has been so encouraging and making me look at things a little differently. I’m so grateful for the ways that the Lord speaks through His word, and through others. Isn’t that so neat?! One of the daily readings in the devotion Jesus Calling by Sarah Young I just started, it was saying to view each day as an adventure. Immediately I was like a school kid that knew the answer to a really hard question. Yes! I do that! And then felt as though I should get a pat on the back…good job Kathleen, you are very good at this one. But then, am I looking at the day as an adventure when I’m in a car accident with my husband? Or what about the days when everything seems to be going the wrong way? Or what about when…? Later in the reading, it says, “Thank me for this day (good and bad!) of life, recognizing that it is a precious unrepeatable gift. Some days, we hit the pillow and are thanking God that we never have to see that day again, do we stop to think it’s a gift? He prepares us for whatever is going to come each day, if we will allow Him to. The reading finishes up with, “No matter how steep or treacherous the path before you, the safest place to be is by My side.” If we’re walking with Him, nothing is going to trample us. Every day is so designed for us, He knows…He’s not going to show us what’s ahead, but He has thoroughly equipped us- is a reading from another day. “His presence is the best road map available” and then from today I loved, “Circumstances around you are undulating, and there are treacherous-looking waves in the distance. Fix your eyes on Me, the One who never changes. By the time those waves reach you, they will have shrunk to proportions of My design.”

There is so much and it’s so meaty! I’m really loving it!

One of the other parts that I had read a couple days ago is what seemed to really stick out, like a flashing neon sign, “Instead of starring into the day that is ahead of you, attempting to program it according to your will, be attentive to Me and to all that I have prepared for you.” After that was when it went on to talk about the day being a gift.

When I read that, my thoughts were again drawn back to the accident…we had our plans in motion and had everything set up for what was on our agenda. When I think about the accident being something that was on God’s planner (not saying he caused it, just knew it was going to happen), it changes so many areas in my heart…and then today when I read how to us looking out, the waves seem so scary, but by the time they reach us, God has already made it something that we can bare. A size that he knows our hearts can hold up and if we choose to rely on Him, He promises to carry the load.

I hope I’m making sense.

Anyways…lots of stuff going on in my heart…SO thankful for each word!

I’ve been told people are trying to post their chunk of time on the blog, but it’s not posting…sorry! My email is darlingkathleen@ymail.com if you would rather email! Thank you so much for being willing to sacrifice some of your time!

Updated Prayer and Fasting list...

Monday, June 20
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3pm- Nikki
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Tuesday, June 21
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5pm- Loriel
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Wednesday, June 22
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5pm- Mama
6pm- Mama
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8pm- Susan&Kathy
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Thursday, June 23
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Friday, June 24
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