Sorry for no postings the last couple of days. I typed up Monday night and it wouldn’t let me post. I’ve been trying ever since and nothing! I finally called TJ and all he did was go on and it posted…I tried so many times! Crazy technology.
Since I was so focused on getting what I already had posted, I haven’t written anything else, so here goes for trying to get all my thoughts out!
This was my view on Tuesday…
HE WAS DRIVING AGAIN!!!!! Eeeeep!
It’s pretty stinkin’ incredible if you ask me. I’m a HUGE fan of getting to see him behind the wheel! It went a lot better than it did a couple weeks ago. I think he was feeling more comfortable; I could feel the racer in him coming out! Haha! This time Teresa was giving him more commands and steps to follow. I think he was feeling challenged and ended up getting frustrated because it was hard. He handled it well though, and she was patient with him. It sounds like we’re going to keep working on this and see how it goes. We’re still hanging out in the parking lot…I reckon (this word just made me smile. I said it with an accent as I typed it! Hehe!) we’ll be there for a while.
Cale has been overall more grumpy. I don’t think “grumpy” is the right word, but that’s the only word that comes to mind. It’s like there is this chip on his shoulder constantly. I know it can be a bazillion different reasons of why it’s happening, but that doesn’t mean I like it! Yesterday when we came back from driving, the RS had arrived and had stepped out with Teresa. I took advantage of the time and just prayed over Cale. I know its spiritual…and I just started praying against it! Nothing extreme happened or changed, but I know that the words that were spoken hold power!
I went to bed kind of sad because I wasn’t able to post and ask for prayer. It just seemed to be really strong yesterday.
Well, thank you for any of you that were specifically praying for us last night!!! Today was completely different! Cale had an awesome OT/ST session! His attitude had done a 180! We laughed more today and just had the light sweetness back. He was more of himself too! He was joking more and being silly. I’m so thankful to see an answered prayer unfold; being so different one day to the next.
Today is Kathy’s (Cale’s mom) birthday, so we’ve had a project that’s been waiting to be given to her. Yesterday we finished it up with the RS. It was a wooden clock that he painted and had to put together. It ended up being more difficult than expected, but with help it all came together. I didn’t get a picture of it though!
We also had our swim class this morning. It’s starting to cool off around here a little which isn’t so nice when we’re outside in the pool at 9:30am! Yikes! I was freezing! Cale did even better today! I’m so proud of him for doing the class because, it’s us with 4 much older women and he keeps a good attitude! They were asking today if I was his sister or girlfriend. When I said that I was his wife, they said they didn’t want to assume, but they knew because they could see a strong love between us! Aww! I thought that was so sweet! :)
“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” -Luke 10:41-42
The Lord is taking me through a season of relearning to sit with Him. It’s been a few weeks and I can’t say I’m perfect in this area at all, but I’ve really been trying. When the accident happened, time with Jesus was my life-line. The time I was able to read the Bible and pray was the way I was able to take every breath; to wake up another day, to hang on to every bit of hope for his recovery and our future. Some days were so long, but an escape for me was found on pages of God’s word.
I needed it; I hungered for it, I sought for the presence of the Holy Spirit every moment my eyes were open…
…and then Cale started to become more aware. Shortly after arriving in Palo Alto, Cale became aware every time I left him. Then, when I was with him, suddenly I wasn’t able to read my Bible anymore because he demanded my attention. I started staying up later and waking up earlier just so that I could soak in every bit of stillness with the Lord that was possible.
When we arrived in Seattle the first time and were moved to the apartment room, Cale was with me 24/7…literally. My time alone when first waking up or before sleeping had disappeared and a battle started of fighting for my quiet time.
Shortly after we were home I thought it was getting better, but then there’s list after list of things that need to be done. Now I was taking care of Cale, washing the dishes, doing the laundry, cooking, dusting, unpacking, making phone calls, caring for Basil and Scratch, doing therapy with Cale, sweeping and mopping, organizing, emailing, making trips back to Seattle, taking phone calls…and it kept going.
I’m sure many of you can identify.
There are always things that need to get done; always a “to do” list begging for attention.
When we had to leave for Seattle the second time, I was determined to find my place again at the feet of Jesus. I purchased the devotional Jesus Calling and started it right away. That book along with other tools (one being the Bible!) I was able to get back into a consistent daily time.
Things happen. Life gets so busy and days fill up so fast. Even though I was being consistent with daily setting a part time to be with the Lord, the days that I was actually BEING with Him and once again soaking up His presence was quite a bit less than I’d like to admit.
I was urged to start a 40 day journey and guess where he brought me? To His feet. To rest in Him; to become refreshed with His grace and drenched in His peace.
So many times we get so busy and caught up with the “doing” when most of the time; it means absolutely nothing for the kingdom.
Yes, I’m learning…and trying…and seeking…and praying…
…and I’m loving it.