Thursday, November 3, 2011

This is how we do.

We were like this...


for most of the day.

I had a list of things that I needed to get done, calls to make, and not to mention pack! All I wanted was my husband.

I have been a wee bit emotional the last couple weeks. I think struggles that I’m going through and facing are starting to come to the surface a little more. It’s taking a toll on me to process everything and face it, but boy oh boy am I a thankful little lady because I don’t have to do it on my own!

The Lord himself is with me and already knows. He’s been patiently waiting for me to get to the point that I realize some of what I’m holding onto and things that are harboring in my heart. He’s been waiting for me to talk to Him about them. He wants to hear everything that’s on my heart even though He already knows (same for you!) and it brings a sweet kind of comfort.

See, all these “things” that take up so much room in my thoughts and time, well, those things crowd in and take up room the Lord wants-deserves.

I have to taste, chew, and swallow piece by piece, issue by issue, and struggle by struggle.

Every bite surrendering completely but still needing to work through it.

It’s interesting to me because there are a lot of tears that have been coming lately and Cale is a huge part of it…this brain injury is a part of it, yet, I’m still absolutely crazy about him. That can’t be taken away.

Tomorrow morning I’m flying to NYC again for the second half of the writer’s conference I had gone to back in July. I’m excited, but at the same time…I’ve been missing Cale before even leaving! I used to have the same emotions running their course before deployments and while he was on R&R (2 week vacation from deployment). A little silly since it’s only a few days…

Tuesday and Wednesday his brother Ty and his family were here visiting. We had so much fun with them! :) Yesterday Ty, Cale, and the two boys hung out and had a full day! They first tried mini golfing, and then had lunch at McDonalds and then Chuck E Cheese! Nikki and I went shopping and had girl time and then met up with the boys for the Chuck E Cheese fun. It was really great having them around. They’re stationed here in WA now, so we won’t have to go to the other side of the country to visit anymore!

We had Chinese with them at Cale’s moms house last night and Cale’s fortune cookie read, “Your presence livens up any conversation” I agree with that!

I’m already up way later than I had wanted to be…3:30am comes early! Yikes!




Cale,
You are such a blessing. Thank you for today and for all of your sweetness! I’m going to miss you tons, but I know we’ll talk on the phone lots! See you Monday Boy! Love you!
Your Girl

5 comments:

  1. Read this today.

    God's will never takes me where His grace will not sustain me. (Ruth Humlecker)

    ReplyDelete
  2. I love you too my girl. I am going to see you soon. I can't wait because I miss you.

    Caleb your boy

    ReplyDelete
  3. Sweet Kathleen, Father is perfecting His saints for a purpose. While my situation is vastley different than yours, I too, am learning total and complete trust in my Father. I, too, have had my/now His, tears watering my garden. I rejoice with you in being able to go to the writers conference. You WILL have a blast. Father has many gifts/surprises for you. I love you, Marion

    ReplyDelete
  4. I LOVE THAT PICTURE!!! Basil makes me grin like a fool! I'm going to go cuddle my Bo for a second now.

    ReplyDelete
  5. LOVE the pic AND your sense of humor! Basil certaintly looks comfy and appears to me like he would argue who loves Cale more...you or he! : D
    ALL my love,
    Lorri C.

    ReplyDelete

Please included at least your first name and know that we are reviewing each comment so it may take up to 12 hours to post. Thank you all for your constant encouragement and prayers.