hears, sees, knows.

During those many days the king of Egypt died, and the people of Israel groaned because of their slavery and cried out for help. Their cry for rescue from slavery came up to God. And God heard their groaning, and God remembered his covenant with Abraham, with Isaac, and with Jacob. God saw the people of Israel—and God knew.

Exodus 2:23-25

I've been doing a bible study on Moses over the last several weeks. It's feeding me bread and not just milk. I absolutely love it and need it. 

A few weeks ago, we read Exodus 2:23-25 and three words stuck out to me; heard, saw, and knew. 

One of the other ladies in the study had brought it up so I wasn't the only one. These words have been playing over and over in my mind. I've been chewing on them like Nora chews on her toys-focused, determined, and with purpose. 

My heart has been tugged on the last few days. Partly I know why and I know things aren't as dramatic as they may seem to be this week as they will next week...but partly life is hard and that makes for hard. 

I kind of vented to Mama this afternoon. I wasn't complaining, just stating facts. I'm sure I should have felt better after getting it all out but I think I just became even more stuck under thick mud. At least that's the image in this crazy mind of mine!

Things are good with Cale. I see him trying in so many different ways to become a better man, husband and daddy. It's beautiful. It really is. So quickly my thoughts can lead to this spiraling trail of listing off all the things that we don't have-that I don't have; things that feel stolen.

I'm sure if you check back in with me next week, I'll be fine. For today though, today was just heavy. Blah.

I was rocking with Nora this evening feeding her before bed. I was listening to Mama tell a story when there was a knock at the door. Mama's friend had just left so we thought maybe she had forgotten something. Mama answered the door to a pile of stuff. She came back to Nora's room with a bag of stuff and a sweet sweet gift.

Friend, if you're struggling tonight, I want to let you know that the God who created this universe and the God who knit you together in your mother's womb,

He hears you.

He sees you.

He knows you.

When you press in and with desperation you seek Him, you will find Him. He will wrap His arms around you and love you. 

He's personal. 

There will be heavy hearted days that are swimming (or even sinking) in mud but there's also a God that knows exactly what your thoughts are. 

He hears you.

He sees you.

He knows you.