We're still here, just enjoying the holidays and each other :)
There's something on my heart that I want to share with you-but mostly putting it on here so I'll have it written out.
On New Years Eve I posted this picture on Instagram and Facebook-
Along with it I had this quote-
"Discipline is the wholehearted yes to the call of God. When I know myself called, summoned, addressed, taken possession of, known, acted upon, I have heard the Master. I put myself gladly, fully and forever at His disposal, and to whatever he says my answer is yes." -Elizabeth Elliot
When I posted that quote I didn't have a specific idea of what that may be that He's asking of me this year- but whatever its going to be, I want my answer to be yes.
Rewind for a minute-
We have been going through a period that has been super challenging with Cale. It's every day and I fully rejoice we have Jesus. We claim victory and we know we'll make it to the other side but this middle part right now is haaaaaard.
Yesterday, the first day of 2018 was started with me being confident and excited. I didn't stay up until midnight so I woke up a little more chipper than a lot of you may have. ;)
To make this story short, Mama made a yummy dinner, one she makes every New Years day. I didn't help at all, I played with the kiddos :) Nora helped me set the table extra special though.
Cale ended up having a moment. I won't give details but it ended with frustration and tears for me.
We ate dinner while he stayed upstairs and then one of our friends came to pick him up and get him out of the house for a little bit- I am so grateful.
After dinner I cleaned up the kitchen and while washing there were a lot more tears. Outside of these moments, I know it's brain injury. I am able to reason with myself but it definitely feels like I'm fighting a battle up stream and I just struggle sometimes to know what the next step needs to be-and many days we just take one step at a time.
Before going upstairs for the night I walked into our dining room and I read this sign I have hanging up over and over and over-
This sign was a little bit of a splurge and now I know it was money well spent. As I read it I quickly started to add, "my answer is yes."
I will be a woman who is humble and gentle.
I will be patient.
I will make allowance for others faults.
Sometimes, God does have callings into a ministry, or getting married or a move or whatever else- but sometimes we just need to say yes to loving him and loving people more. Maybe as we walk through our days, we need to remember to make allowance for others faults because we all mess up.
We will continue to have hard days. We know that and it would be so whether we lived with brain injury or not. It's just going to be that way in a sinful world.
BUT, in our home, we choose to say yes to wholeheartidely loving God and loving people-
even when its hard.