He Satisfies!

I was invited to a ladies bible study tonight that is meeting once a month and they're going through a Beth Moore study. When I was first asked a few days ago, I was really excited about it, but as I went through today, I was questioning my excitement. I knew that I wanted to go, but it was a pretty busy day and Cale also had another dentist appointment, so he wasn't feeling the greatest on our way back to the hospital. Aside from the "busy" day, I find myself (fairly often) not wanting to be in a group of new people...especially a group of women. Now, normally I would love this, but, life since the accident has been very draining, and I hate the feeling of having to entertain or make myself have energy that I don't have. Also, spending everyday all day with Cale, I sometimes feel like I've forgotten how to have conversation outside of hospital stuff. I know I'm sounding kind of depressing...sorry! Anyways, all that to say that I almost said no to going. Well, I'm so glad that I did! My heart was so blessed tonight!

Tonight's video topic was about songs. If you've read through this blog, you know that through music, time after time God has spoken so much to me and that I've been able to share where I'm at-it's been such a huge part of this journey! Perfect study for me! :) One of the verses that was talked about was Psalm 63:5 "My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you." I looked in my Bible and had that verse and the whole passage marked. When David was hiding from his enemies he was alone-he felt lonely and desperate for friendship; for the Lord. He says "You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water. I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods; with singing lips my mouth will praise you." I have been feeling lonely, more than usual since October and even more the last few days (starting with that sad movie I watched the other night...!) and as I read that verse, I was reminded that HE satisfies me, my every need! He satisfies every longing withing me, every desire my heart cries for-He satisfies my soul and the same with Cale!

The night was ended in a couple worship songs, and my heart was encouraged again! I can worship through singing any day at any time, but (I know I've said before) there is something so powerful when there are believers gathered together (Matt 18:20). I realized how much I miss it! I loved the first song we sang lots! So beautiful and again...expressed so much better than I could have with words for where my heart is at.

I Love Your Presence

In the glory of Your presence
I find rest for my soul
In the depths of Your love
I find peace
Makes me whole

I love, I love, I love Your presence
I love, I love, I love Your presence
I love, I love, I love You Jesus
I love, I love, I love Your presence

Cale had a good day in therapy. Hippo was changed from Wednesday to today, so that made things a little off, but still good :) In OT he worked on a puzzle with Monica. When he first started he was doing 5 pieces and today he did 28! Her goal is that he would be able to do 20 with out help. We're talking about ways that we can get him to be more independent with his ADL's (activities of daily living), but figuring out which way is going to work best for him is the first step. He's doing great!

I was talking today with someone about how much progress he's still making! I hate that when he's making so many gains that we have to pull him out of it. I just don't understand the system and I hate feeling pushed. It's not that it's this hospital fault or that it was the other hospitals fault, it's just the way the system is set up-and I'm not a fan. I wish that me stomping my foot had more impact then it does...but, thankfully I can trust that God is in control, and seek His direction. Still, why take Cale out when he's doing so good...blah. If you let me, I could go on and on about this topic...haha!

I was talking to Cale and asking him questions about where we're at and what the date is. I said "My birthday is January..." C: "2nd" K: "Yep! What's before my birthday?" C: "New Years" K: " and what else?" C: "Christmas!" Cale has not been able to do this yet! It was great that first he was able to say when my birthday is because even with lots of help, he hasn't been able to get it and also that he was able to say the two holidays before...again, he hasn't been able to do this! It being December isn't sticking yet, and even with describing all the things of Christmas, Cale has so much trouble thinking of the right day. So happy! :)

I found this picture last night and it's also on my Facebook. I thought it was so funny and had to put it on here because my caption for the picture is...

If Cale and I were pots, this would be us :)