Saturday, January 8, 2011

A journey so bittersweet

Big News today...

Kathy is coming!!!!

Cale and I are both excited that his mom will be here during the surgery! Someone has blessed us with donated miles so that she can come be with us. What a praise! Yay!

This morning started off a little rocky. Cale was in a bad mood for a little bit because he was having to do PT. He worked really hard and was being pushed, that always gets to him. For some reason, I started to slump into a bad mood too. I could feel it start to happen and there just didn't seem to be any energy to stop it. After PT was over, Cale wanted to play cards again. We put on music and started playing; Cale was oblivious to my mood. I could feel tears threatening and was so annoyed at myself for how I was acting. What was my problem? Finally, I set my cards down, and asked Cale to pause for a minute. I looked at him and said, "I'm in a bad mood." Cale looked back at me, "Sorry!" Then he grabbed my head and kissed me. It was so sweet! Before the accident, Cale always knew if my mood changed within a heartbeat (and for girls this can happen a lot!). He knew what I was going to say before I said it, he knew me. There was nothing between us that we couldn't say to each other. I think part of what was really upsetting me was that he didn't know I was upset. This hurt like another punch in the gut, because it's another thing that's missing for us. Cale doesn't think about every little thing that we don't have anymore; he doesn't remember yet. He acted on how he would have normally! He tried to comfort me. It was so stinkin' sweet and snapped me out of my silly little funk. I love how we are relearning each other in different areas, and for the things we've lost, we're able to make up for in a new way. It's so bittersweet. I would have never had to tell Cale before, but what did it hurt to tell him?! Communication my friend... :) I'm so blessed to have an amazing man to love me back everyday...!

We spent a lot of our day at the Fisher House. I needed to get laundry done and had Cale help. :) We played cards, worked on a surprise project, hung out, and ended our night with another Red Wings game. We won...just saying ;)

I've gotten a few emails and messages from people saying they've tried to comment on Tuesday's post, but it's not working...sorry! I'm not sure why. I know my mom said she had to click "submit" three times for it to finally work. I have no idea how these things work, but thank you for at least trying! Cale is going to be very surprised! Can't wait to fill him with so much encouragement!! :)

2 comments:

  1. My Friend, There's nothing wrong with needing validation. Father created us needing each other, not just one always giving and the other..for whatever reason...always receiving. I am delighted for you guys, getting to have Cale's mom there during surgery. I love you, Marion

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  2. Yeah, I'm so glad Kathy can be there:) Glad you got over your funk, too:) Love you.
    Julie H.

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